The Raw Truth Exposed In Ten Years

There we sat

Face to face

Alone

Staring no blinking

Memories flooded our minds….constantly thinking

I knew the person but I haven’t given them the time of day in years

Here we are sitting…staring…facing all  of our fears

Locked in a silent trans we speak from the heart

Emotions begin to emerge on our faces no elements could break us apart

The only two that knows that honest to God truth

The story of our life by the grace of God standing here as living proof

There is a moment. She pauses, breathes and lets her wall of protection  she wears come down

What I see freezes my body shocks my emotions silent I sit shocked not making a sound

A decade of pain causes her eyes to have innocent glassiness of tears staring at me

Her eyes begging me why ?!why?! why ?! did you do this to me?! how could you not see the toll it took on me?

Her face harboring the bad choices she led to believe was the only option

Eyes engaged we exchange our past…the choices I made that dragged her through her darkest hour

Allowing me to see how my choices left her bitter broken and sour

I just wanted to run to her with open arms, hold her tight and tell her I love her so much and that suffering is over.

Im sorry for being selfish, neglecting you and your  pureness of heart full of good intention smothering it with my devious ways and my cruel perception.

I punished you for the gouging pain others induced

Here you are the innocent victim and today I want to present a truce

From here on out everything I do is for you.

I dedicate my life to heal your pain, dry your tears, love you so much till you have no fears

And there she sat looking back at me

For the first time in years she showed signs of being happy

The promise was made and ill be damned if it doesn’t happen

This poor innocent girl had every word spoken to her end in a lie

Ill give her what she deserves even if I have to die.

Because she died for me so I could  live in false happiness and escape reality

Now Ill die for her to live in truth love peace joy and truly be happy

There we sat.

Ready to forgive the ones who wronged us . forgive and forget

Love so much healing the holes  on our soul and lacerations on our heart

Stick together till the day God calls us home..the only thing which will  be able to break us apart

Soul parting from the earthly shell of human flesh

But until then her walls go back up ,  hiding her true self from the world allowing her to mesh

We promise to see each other and talk  more often  and let things that happened between us just be.

 There i sit ..I looking at her and my reflection looking back at me.

<3 Alison Claire

Winds of Her Spirit

Disturbing peace in ones soul alluring the senses of trust to let the guards of protection fall down
Entering the most sacred space of the being in the middle of the silence in the dark when no ones around

Awakening  endorphines ... affectionate connection
The moment passes, back to reality of life, up go the walls out ,come the guards , constant protection

Goodbyes generate white lies of hope
enticing the mind to feel at ease leaving the sweet sense of happiness to cope

The silence once shared is bombarded and flooded with the judgmental noise and persuasions of the world

The life paths once intertwined as one are farther then the poles of the earth
Constructing more walls of protection to thy heart and soul... inducing a barrier birth

The people of the world  ponder how one can be so easily detached from the greatest feeling between two
Three little words pierce her heart rendering abandonment and  strength doing what she had to do

Resilient to human affection never allowing one to get to close
 in fear of being  attacked where it hurts and stings the most


Keeping her whole life a series of secrets to  beings like her,  knowing it will be the last
Shed rather talk to Angels of her haunting past

Her soul is the prize of the greatest battle that will only seize when shes unable to breathe

Constantly fighting off demons drowning who she really is
Gasping for breath , Seeing an escape for  an oasis at that first kiss

Unlocking the door to her most guarded possession talking to her you'll lose track of time
Intriguing is an understatement of what you see before you
everything about her rushed sensations through your spine

You want to hold her forever and absorb the pain, Heal the wounds from walking the plains of life
You kiss her softly, allowing trust to envelope her mind soothing her heart, there you lay in the silence of the night.

exchanging a moment that allows her to escape, mental vacation.....sensual stimulation

as easy as it began its easier for her to walk away leaving you lying there granting you one last glimpse, an unforgivable sway and just like that she disappears in the dark talking to Angels on her way.

....Peaceful Warrior following her spiritual wind
Living a life of seclusion never letting anyone in

<3 Alison Claire

Give God the Keys to your Car and Watch Where He'll Take You!?!?!?!

Letting Go and Letting God take the wheel in my life

...As soon as Jesus hopped in the driver seat he told me to BUCKLE UP AND HOLD ON! as he whipped a U turn and speed full throttle the opposite direction... (who would of thought Our Lord was a Rebel...

l guess when He is saving a soul there is no speed. I sat  back in the passenger seat and could for the first time in 7 years RELAX, BREATHE, LET GO and LET GOD take care of everything

 my job

 my friends

 my house

 my bills

 my family 

my mission

 my purpose.

(GIVING EVERYTHING TO HIM, SHOWS OUR FAITH AND HE LOVES US SO MUCH HE ALWAYS HANDLES EVERY SITUATION WE BRING TO HIM IN THE BEST WAY)

 Looking out the window driving through the valley of death I once walked I now was in the JESUS mobile

 ...SAFE FROM THE ENEMY...TRULY SORRY FOR MY SINS AND POOR CHOICES I REPENTED AND BECAUSE OF GODS INFINITE AND DIVINE MERCY I WAS CRADLED IN HIS SAFETY CRUISING BY THE OBSTACLES THAT ONCE TRIPPED ME UP....

 ( almost like having star power in super mario...everything that harms you instantly dies when trying to attack you because your protected. ) That is the same thing when you return to the bright light loving care of God the Father and follow His glorious plan He created you for. Nothing.. can harm you )

I was no longer stuck suffering and struggling...we were soon at our first pit stop allowing me to self reflect repent and choose to continue to still give Him the keys and have control over my destiny .... for what took me 7 years He got done in one week so Go ahead Brother keep whipping work =)

 Looking out the window I seen my reflection in the review mirror, i started crying out of joy for who i saw looking back at me was free from her vices and things of this earth that were holding her back she looked so happy so at peace she looked back at me and said I LOVE AND FORGIVE YOU. for the first time in a long time i LIKED no i LOVED what i seen in the mirror.

 I glanced over at Jesus while  both belting out Bob seger and just smiled as he continued to drive and steer my life in the right direction... We talked about so much through this journey and He told me Im the only person who knows where were going HOW COULD YOU NOT LET ME DRIVE ...Crazy girl.. NO WONDER YOU WERE LOST!?!? But dont worry I have a GPS on all my daughters and sons... and when they Call for me I come right to them and get them back on the right road to there purpose for which they were created.

 So now Im at my third pit stop. Hanging out with Jesus you meet the BEST PEOPLE WITH THE CRAZIEST NETWORKING CONNECTIONS WHO OPEN DOORS YOU WOULDNT EVEN DREAM OF Go Jesus GO! For the first time in my life after searching for so long I found the puzzle box i fit in..

 I am fulfilling my mission as an apostle of Jesus and Mary and doing the work i was created for... Loving, serving, guiding, counseling and mentoring young people and youth ..Modernizing the gospel so everyone understands and teaching them by actions not preaching.

JESUS YOU DROVE ME TO THE RIGHT PLACES. AND HE EVEN PAID FOR THE GAS! GOD YOUR AWESOME... I <3 YOU ABOVE ALL THINGS! I am so grateful and BLESSED... let JESUS take the wheel of your life people. YOU CANT EVEN FATHOM WHERE HE WILL TAKE YOU. you have nothing to lose but everything to gain.

<3 Alison Claire

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<3 Alison Claire

THE FORMULA TO SUCCESS. ALISON THOMAS STYLE. =)

I recently posted a status on my Facebook stating: 

"Took some time to self reflect at where I started,places I been things ive done people I surrounded myself with... and REALIZED how I SKYROCKETED TO where I am today, places I go to now,projects I work on currently.. rubbing elbows with the elite.....living on my own at 21 in one of the most expensive cities in the world. only a true hustler has self discipline drive and ambition to make nothing into an empire,I can honestly say I've broken the middle class link in my family chain, everyone after me will be born into success and i only ever did it for all you....WELCOME TO FIRST CLASS THOMAS'S. If you truly WANT IT YOU'LL FIND A WAY TO ACHIEVE GREATNESS AND CHANGE LIVES FOREVER "
After this went up a lot of people (whom I was just chilling and not doing anything productive with) messaged me and asked me WOW, how did you get to the place you are now making and building your empire? As they were still sitting in the same spot several years ago, doing the same thing.  I felt that this would be a great article for this blog and here we are.

THE ANSWER TO THAT QUESTION

1. I NEVER GAVE UP- When life knocked me on my ass several times, I got right back up swinging

2.GAVE THINGS THAT I COULDNT UNDERSTAND TO GOD- A lot of things happen to us that do not make sense, and seems like God is absent. Ive learned that through suffering God is drawing us closer to Him, because we turn and completely trust in Him when we have no other option. He is strengthening us, pushing us beyond our limits showing our true strength and potential to ourselves. Just like any other coach would push you to your max...your sweating your tired you even vomited but you made it through and proved to yourself that you were stronger and better in the end. That is all God is doing is coaching you. So when you dont know what to do or why things are happening GIVE IT TO GOD, TALK TO THE ALMIGHTY COACH and He will lead you on to victory.

3. HUSTLER AMBITION- Im not referring to any illegal activity because all that will get you is jail, death, or institutions (TIME WASTED FOR BEING IGNORANT) which will literally ruin your life and hold you back forever. IM REFERRING TO MAKING SOMETHING OUT OF NOTHING. Making the best of every situation, seeing it from all angles and working it in your favor. Its an art to be able to sell someone nothing, or to make a feast out of 3 ingredients.

4. SACRIFICIAL DISCIPLINE- This is hard to do especially if no one or thing is holding you accountable to see if your actually doing it.... Ive learned no one cares if you do it or you dont THIS IS YOUR LIFE AND YOUR ONLY HURTING YOURSELF IN THE END IF YOU CHEAT YOURSELF IN THE PRESENT. You have to SACRIFICE  certain luxuries and pleasures in order to sustainable make it a stability in the near future. If you want that finer things lifestyle wait. work. watch the finer things become average.

5. FORGIVENESS-  Your going to make mistakes, which is good... the key is not to make the same mistake twice... if you make a lot of mistakes your learning a ton of valuable lessons.. trust me ive made millions and learned lessons no human could teach me. You have to learn to forgive, forget, forge on.

6. MOTIVATIONAL DRIVE- If i was not motivated I would still be living at home doing nothing. Motivation is wanting something as bad as you want to live and breathe. once you established that level of drive YOU WILL SUCCEED AT ANYTHING YOU DO. when life knocks you down get the F^&* back up and BUCK BACK...crying and escaping reality with drugs or alcohol or busying yourself with mindless things is not going to make it better...THE STRONG SURVIVE AND MAKE IT ....DONT BE THE WEAK ONE WHO GETS LEFT BEHIND.

7. CONFIDENCE- this is key, I have held several positions i was not qualified for but i walked into the interview like i owned the damn business and got the job....human nature naturally responds positively to confidence its an assurance that we know who we are and what were doing.. if you dont have any fake it till you make it..once you force yourself to be confident and you see how people respond to you it will build your confidence.. also i am strong believer in putting good out there good will return so boost peoples confidence by complimenting them or even smiling.

8.SIZING UP COMPETITION- study your competition and know them better than they know themselves. The world praises these phony celebrities and other people who "made it" my attitude is OK AND WHY NOT ME ...If they could do it why cant i..If Donald Trump, Bill Gates, Oprah and what not changed this world why cant I... we all came out of a woman....we all have the same opportunity.

9. TRUST IN GOD- THIS IS KEY HIS WILL IS GOING TO HAPPEN WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT YOU MIGHT AS WELL GET ON BOARD AND WORK WITH HIM SO YOU CAN PRODUCE FRUIT THAT WILL NEVER ROT. EVERY KNEE BENDS TO THE NAME OF JESUS ALL EVIL AND DEMONIC SHIT HAVE TO BOW BEFORE HIM.. TALK ABOUT POWER... NOW THATS ONE GUY FOR SURE I WANT ON MY SIDE..JESUS I TRUST YOU!

10. LOVE- love yourself, love what you see in the mirror, love others, even when its hard to force yourself.....SURROUND YOURSELF WITH PEOPLE YOU ASPIRE TO BE LIKE FOR YOUR SOCIAL CIRCLES ARE A MIRROR IMAGE OF WHO YOU ARE. If you hang out with people who are ok with nothing then you to will have nothing.. If you hang out with like minded entrepreneurs and go getters than you too will develop that mindset and success.

IF YOUR NOT HAPPY DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO GOT YOURSELF WHERE YOU ARE TODAY AND YOUR THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN CHANGE COURSE 

<3 Alison Claire.

Everything Happening is Meant to be

Whether good or bad situations and circumstances you find yourself in know that God permits all things and you are there, wherever it may be for a reason.

Even through HARDSHIP AND STRUGGLES just simply ask.. "WHY am I here God, What work must I do?"....Do not forget Matthew 7:7, Ask and you shall be answered, Knock and the door will be opened, Seek and you shall find.

How refreshing to know that's all we simply have to do is ASK. 

For God takes care of the birds and a the blades of grass, what makes you think He will not take care of you? Have faith my friend for God never abandons, He is always there, Living and working in us (Holy Spirit) the power of God that runs through our veins into our heart and souls leading and guiding us on the way to heaven, our eternal happiness. I now want to recall you to St. Paul who was sent out to spread the Gospel and in doing so at that time under Jewish law he was persecuted and thrown in Jail for proclaiming the truth. Now lets place ourselves in his sandals for a moment and unite ourselves with his mind, how do you think he felt??...Jesus tells him to go out and spread the good news and by listening to Him he is now at one of the worst places we could ever imagine to be? A JAIL CELL WRONGLY CONVICTED FROM DOING SOMETHING GOD TOLD ME TO DO?!?!??!?!

 The human nature mind of this material world would probably think..."Wow, thanks Jesus so much for spreading your word, look where it got me! "But St. Paul enlightened through the gift of the Holy Spirit knew that he was brought there for a reason... to minister and teach people in the jails about God and the faith and Mercy, and by doing so he led many souls to heaven and Jesus...what a beautiful thing, for I know if you asked me what i want to do in this earthly life, among many, things the glue that holds all my endeavors together is they will all ultimately HELP PEOPLE.