i can offer you a warm embrace to make you feel my love.
We are human beings, creatures of emotions, creatures who act on emotion.
Ill be the first one to say that it is SO HARD not to. Ill give you a perfect example... When i was younger i was out in public somwhere with my mother and i dont remeber exactly what but i must of been having "one of those days" my mother looked at me and said.. "Alison wipe that look off your face!" i responded with what are you talking about.... thinking i wasnt even making a face but clearly to her and the general public it was all over my face that i was not in a good mood.
We all seen people on the street, people in public, people wherever and we can just tell by looking at them, that there going through something. My heart goes out to them, out to every single one of you. Sometimes we all just need that shoulder to lean on, that smile, those words of encouragement, that compliment to change our whole day and get us back into the right mindset.
My point is is that its extremely hard NOT TO ACT ON THE CURRENT EMOTIONS YOUR FEELING. But a wise saying states : " A decsion based on emotion is always the wrong one." Now I only write and speak from what i know, what i experienced, and what i lived. and truly my whole life has been based on emotional decisons. I ran from my past, i hurt others to move ahead only learning i came in last and blackened my soul in the process, i emotionally only thought of myself, What am i getting out of this. unfortunately friends the purpose of each of our lives is to find our God given talent and fins out how to share that gift with others.
I currently am struggling with living in two worlds, a tug of war for my soul, and im so tired, so exhausted, so drained of trying to balance both because we can only serve one God and like the saying goes you cant have the best of both worlds. You cant go to church on Sundays help out within the parish preach and spread Gods love and Mercy and then go out and get drunk and have pre marital sex on the weekends. or lie and cheat others, cheat on your wife and kids, steal for your own wants, hurt someone because they hurt you etc.
I am guilty of being the biggest hypocrite, I wind up in the confessional repeating the same sins to the priest. But im here, im receiving the sacrament , im fighting, im trying, i want heaven, I want to be a saint, God knows all of our hearts and all of our pure intentions that we fail to carry out because we fall into temptation and sin of this world. He knows, he humbled Himself so much and became Man, giving us His only son to understand the human creature, Jesus shared in our emotions, our flesh and blood. I think people fail to relate to this AMAZING MAN, THE LOVE OF MY LIFE! He felt everything we feel, dont think because he was God within man that he didnt experience sadness, pain, suffering, hurt, anger, disappointment. He experienced so much that His Scared Flesh sweated blood knowing everything He had to go through to Save you.
FOR CHRISTS SAKE HIS WHOLE LIFE WAS SUFFERING. BUT IT IS CALLED THE PASSION OF CHRIST. BECAUSE HE SO PASSIONATELY LOVED YOU SO MUCH THAT HE WOULD SUFFER AND DIE FOR YOU.
With that being said you have to DISCIPLINE YOURSELF, just because you feel sad or lonely doesn't mean go get a drink, go have casual sex to feel liked or loved, dont lie because you fear the truth, dont cheat to get ahead.. dont make emotionally decisions so your human self feel comfortable. its painfully to be raw and honest with who you really are, and who you think you are.
back to my point on emotions, you have to embrace your suffering, embrace your pain your hurt your anger your fear your whatever. because the only way to conquer it, is to BE BRAVE BE TRUE BE HONEST BE COURAGEOUS AND LOOK IT RIGHT IN THE FACE AND LET IT KNOW THAT IT WILL NOT DEFEAT YOU. IT WILL ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER.
So many saints and religious that i know, pray for suffering. for the Lord even revealed to St. Faustina that the Angels are jealous of us for 2 things, the ability to suffer and the opportunity to receive Holy Communion. For in suffering you become stronger. you have to be a mental warrior and have discipline to deny yourself to act negatively on these emotions, embrace them and conquer them, offering it up to the poor souls in purgatory.
TRULY IT IS TRUE THAT WHAT DOES NOT KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER. EVERY BATTLE YOU CAME OUT OF IN YOUR LIFE YOU GAINED WISDOM, KNOWLEDGE, STRENGTH, AND DIVINE BLESSINGS.
Jesus was right there with you, holding your hand when you walked alone, holding your head when your were balling your eyes out, He was there in the middle night hugging you when you had all those evil thoughts running through your head. He was there kneeling at your bedside smiling when you didnt even feel worthy of getting up, HE WAS THERE, HE IS THERE, HE IS RIGHT NEXT TO YOU NOW AT THIS MOMENT, along WITH YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL WHO NEVER LEAVES YOUR SIDE ( that is there only job to light and guard to rule and guide over you, to protect you, to help you walk on your destined path to heaven;.
TALK TO THEM MY FRIENDS THEY WILL ANSWER, SOME ANGLES GO THROUGH THEIR PERSONS WHOLE LIFE WITHOUT EVEN BEING THANKED, BEING TALKED TO..HOW SAD. THEY WERE CREATED JUST FOR YOU!!
This world has one guarantee...SUFFERING. but its all how you look at it. I love when suffering comes my way because i know that each second, each day i face it embrace it and conquer it i become this AMAZING WARRIOR THAT NO ONE CAN DEFEAT, NO SUBSTANCE CAN POSSESS, NO TRIAL CAN BREAK, NO BATTLE CAN KILL, NO TORMENT CAN HURT.
those who personal know me.. know ive walked through the valley of death many times but each time with the Power and TRUST in God i emerged from the smoke and ashes of the battle every time, stronger wiser and more mentally disciplined.
DON'T GIVE INTO YOUR NEGATIVE EMOTIONS FORCE YOURSELF TO SHOW THE WORLD YOUR NOT SUFFERING, YOUR NOT HAVING A BAD DAY, INSTEAD GO OUT AND SPREAD JOY AND LOVE..SMILE..HOLD DOORS OPEN, HELP A PERSON AND WATCH HOW IT WILL COME BACK TO YOU AND HOW GOD WILL BLESS YOU EVEN MORE.
I love you all so much and my heart sends love, prayers and blessings to each and every one of your precious souls. I am always here for you.
<3 Alison Claire
